just read...

ehem, firstly i wanna share bout my collage, yah hari terakhir gue ospek gue belom cerita kayaknya. sebenernya sih it's kinda bored habisnya hari terakhir tuh cuma duduk duduk aja seminar dan segala macem sampe pulang hhh tapi terakhirnya sih sempet foto foto dulu hehe, this is my group waktu gue ospek, GROUP I :



yah emang fotonya rada ancur haha tapi foto foto yang lainya juga sama aja, yah yang penting gue bisa share foto pengalaman gue waktu ospek hehe :p

by the way, this night i feel like i kinda like "that thing" again, ohh gosh, i dont know how to cure this feelings, i just... you know its soo strong gah i love you even more now. okay its my bad, seharusnya gue gak boleh nyimpen ini, malah mestinya gue buang jauh jauh tapi gak bisa T.T it's too many memories to forget.

the more i think i should leave you
the more i feel that i love you even more

and its sucks. its sucks to like, to love someone that doesn't feel the same way like you feel, it makes you getting down and down and down if they were around you.

soooo, don't look back if you doesn't want to get hurt!

ohh ribetnya ospek -__-

gue udah kuliah sekarang, keterima nya di Institut Ilmu Sosial dan Ilmu Politik (IISIP), tepatnya di daerah Lenteng Agung. dan sekarang adalah masa masa dimana gue lagi ospek. wow rasanya gue ospek baru 3 hari, tapi perasaan udah 3 taon. gah, it makes me freakin tired for sure. besok terakhir gue ospek. apa jadinya yaa?

yang bikin capek sebenernya tuh karna kampus tercinta gue itu ospek di tengah tengah puasa begini, ya mamfus aja guaa lemes nya nauzubillah malah kakak seniornya ngga mau tau lagi T.T
yaa awal awal ospek mereka mengatakan "disini tidak ada senioritas" kadang "disini mah nyantai aja" tapi apa? apa? apaaaaaa? tetap saja batin ini terkoyak (asek deh lebay dikit ga ngapa lah hahaha)
ya sebenernya sih lumayan baik tapi tetep aja adalah yg namanya senioritas, belom lagi disuruh bawa ini itu, disuruh pake macem macem, dan yg paling gue malesin gue disuruh nulis love letter gitu sama senior dengan memakai foto dan cap bibir gue. whaat?? aah membetekan sekali saudara saudara T.T
sampe sekarang gue belom bikin tuh surat, gue bingung mau nulis apaan huhuhuhu

ngomong ngomong iya juga ya gue belom bikin, mamfuslah gue besok T.T yasudahlah saya pasrah saja -__-
oh Iim afraid. wish me luck tomorrow ya. CIAO =D

don't expect too much

well, i think i prefer not to be a girl who always sad. i have my life and my life is beautiful :) i just can't stand like this. now i realize, hoping too much for something that uncertain will makes you disappoint at the end. it will makes you feel so much bad, so much pain, but you actually got NOTHING. yes, why i said like that? because now i were on that situation. you know sometimes if you have the same situation like me it's kinda make you feel like you are the lonely and bla bla persons, but you know don't be.

sometimes, if you have a problem then your friend give you advice, actually it was a best, you must believe your friend. even though you think that you can't trough that part, or even you think that "yeah it's easy to talk" actually you must do the advice that you've got.

you must think that you are OKAY, instead of you are NOT OKAY AT ALL.

okay, that's all. and remember, don't expect too much :')

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okay then, hari pertama memulai tarawih. seneeengg akhirnya ramadhan tiba juga :) every muslim in the world were about to welcome this holy month. rencana nya sih bulan ini gue pengen banget hattam Al-Qur'an tapi ga tau juga ini berhasil apa ngga -___-
gue jujur aja belum pernah tamat baca kitab suci gue sendiri hoaaaahhh.

by the way, gue sempet nemenin nyokap tersayang belanja buat keperluan rumah gitu, wuihhh penuh banget kayaknya ya hypermart gitu, padahal masih 3 hari before puasa ckck rasanya kaya semut, its to crowded kalo ga pikir bantuin nyokap juga ga bakalan gue mau hahahahah.
after that, ya gue dirumah doang sampe rasanya bulukan, mana gue sakit gaboleh keluar deh jadinya . and it's sooo makes me freakin bored .

sampai akhirnya temen gue namanya iwan (biasa gue manggilnya sih baong) kerumah gue minjem novel, ya gue akhirnya curhat sampe jam 2 pagi HAHAHAH :D mumpung dia gajian asik deh besoknya gue, fhie, nyai dan mantanya nyai (maaf i forgot the name hehe)di traktir makan hahaha lumayan lumayaaan :D

yaa I'm happy if i were among of them, cause there are my closest friend. for sure.
thank god you gave them to me :)

well, i think that's enough, i just want to say HAPPY FASTING FOR THOSE PEOPLE WHO CELEBRATE IT :)

its just a saturday night...

apa ya,gue bingung mesti start darimana. ya ya memulai sesuatu itu memang sulit. lagian im not such a great writer ya know...
tapi yaa i'll try to do my best hahah

sebenernya hari ini im not in the mood at all. yes, sekarang ini saturday night and then yang gue lakuin cuma sitting around inside of da house. sedangkan temen-temen gue pada jalan jalan dengan asyiknya HAH. gue mau banget ikutan, tapi tapi gaenak lah masa iya orang pacaran gue intilin(bahasa apa itu intilin? yah i guess you know what i meant)
ada juga sahabat gue yang single, baru mau gue ajak ternyata udah ada acara. ahelah banget -____-
sebenarnya sih its okay juga stay dirumah, biasanya juga gitu, tapi ini benar-benar borring, bosan baca novel, then my phone were very quite bikin gue nambah borring aja dirumah ahhhhh~

lagi juga, gue dirumah ga ada temen boo, nyokap terlalu gaul main sama temenya, bokap gue ahhh sama saja, bahkan adek gue pun sudah mulai malam mingguan sodara-sodara betapa betapa betapaaaa -____-

sekarang kayaknya udah pada ada acara masing-masing sih ah gimana gue ga makin makin ngerasa sendiri coba huaaahuhuhu tapi jadi inget masa-masa indah waktu ibu dan papa pergi bersama-sama, ini nih foto nya :



uhhhhh i miss that moment, did they know how much i love them -____-

sehabis ini pun gue bingung mau ngapain, yah sepertinya this saturday night will be the same night like before :'(

poor me :'''(

long time no write since april. yes, its because i dont really know what story do i have to share with. 3months. its a long way... now, many things are changes in my life. and its really hard to pass ya know :)

mostly, people says that i must strong, but they dont know how much it hurt me. they said i could pass this, but they dont know how hard to walk in. they said i will be okay, but NO, im not okay at all.

yeaaaah,maybe if you read this you may said that im to much, but once again, you dont know at all, you never feel the pain like i feel. its not the story about broken hearts with your bf or gf, i know if you breakup with your girl or boy, its hurt but its something deep, something more than break up.
i dont know what to say, now im speechless...